(What ?! It's already February 5 and this is my first post ??!! What the duck what the duck.)


Righttt. Assalamualaikum and greetings everyone :) (tho not anyone reads this but who cares anyway :D) I've been busy. Shyerrr so not. I just didn't feel like blogging. but somehow I came accross people's blogs so my desire to blog came again. Hmm anyway. I'm going back to the jail tomorrow evening. *jail = school But as usual I haven't even completed my homeworks. YEAY ME. -.-" Sokay. I still have Sunday night to finish them, hopefully. Amiin -__-

Btw. I'm in the process of getting to know someone, ehem, let's just call him Adh, okay? (I pronounce it as a-duh). He's nice, so far. Well to cut a long story short, he's been admiring *yerr ingga me since 2 years ago...and just a few weeks ago he tried to approach me, and I don't know what made me wanted to know him more, too. Hee. I'm trying to open up myself to him.Plus, I'm an open person, I like being friends with everyone. Hmm anyway I don't wanna stay stuck in the past. Let bygones be bygones, ey? Although it's been 7 months since my last break up, I still have that fear of being left and rejected. It just won't disappear. I don't know why. Orang serawak madah jerak. Aaa. Something like that perhaps. Hmm so this getting-to-know session is gonna last for 4 months. We'll see later on if I really do like him. If I don't then.....goodbye mister.

I've also been in contact with my ex. Glad that we're talking to each other peacefully, haha. He's currently in a position like me,before. I mean the girl he was with when he dumped me did the same thing for him. Oh well. Carma. That just made me believe in carma. Woa.

 Eh I forgot about something. Ironically, my ex and Adh are best friends, actually. Crazyyy I know. Adh kept his feelings silent and endured the pain of seeing me and my ex before this, ouchh :/ That's just insane. I can't imagine being in his shoes. Adh met a few girls to forget me but to no avail he couldn't. I wonder why. I told him that I might not like him back but he doesn't care. He said knowing me makes him happy. More than enough. I made him smile again, that's what he said. I won't repeat my mistakes before, which were, being too rush and got too carried away with my feelings without even thinking about the consequences  later. So I'm doing it step by step. Slowly. 'Cause in life there ain't no guarantee, no?


Wish me luck on that. Yerrr k gtg bye! Take care.